:one year later:

been a year since my last post. hmm idk why i decided to log on to my blog. so much has happened the past year but that story is for another time :]

:work:

i have finally started working and i love it. who would've thought that my first job ended up being three jobs.

currently employed at abercrombie, aeropostale, and american eagle. that's right, AAA! :3

finally going to be making my own money hehe. been getting great hours too :]

:you’re so dumb:

seriously? freaking poppin' four pills >.<"

i'm just glad i was there to take care of you and make sure nothing bad happened to you. *sigh*

メイーちゃん　わ　ばか　です。

11.13.11

spent the evening shopping and then buffalo wild wings to watch the jets v. patriots game with this girl right here :D

7 months later

so much has happened since my last post 7 months ago. i'm not even gonna bother with recollecting anything and putting it in a blog post. why? cause i'm feeling lazy and there's way too much things to remember.

i think i'm going to start writing in this blog again.

anyways, as for tonight. my night is dead and not really in a good mood. i just want to not give a damn about anything and just go to sleep but i really doubt that will happen considering how nocturnal i am. i swear i'm part owl. it's only a matter of time till i can rotate my head 180 degrees.

i guess this is it for this post.

:cant sleep:

it's 2 in the morning and i can't seem to sleep. you seem to be on my mind again. i think im gonna just lay here staring at the ceiling till i fall asleep. i hope that youre sleeping comfortably in your bed. :] daang i havent blogged for awhile now.

:ughhhhh:

you're so stubborn you know that. why can't you get it in your head that you never have to go through things alone. you're hurting and yet you never seem to remember that i exist. i told you countless times before, don't ever think that you have to deal with crap by yourself. i don't know how much help i would be but what i do know is that, i will try and help you feel better. you just cant seem to get that in your head. lets take yesterday for example, you know how sad i was when i knew something was wrong and yet you shook it off again pretending you were fine. i wanted to try and help, and yet you just left me hanging. ill be honest to you, it really pissed me off seeing that you are trying to take on the burdens and stress by yourself again but you know that i cant stay mad at you. so i just pretended nothing happened. that you were telling the truth when you told me you were alright. that's something that i don't like about you. the fact that, regardless how many times i remind you that i am here for you, you can't seem to see that. hey look. i may not be the best person to talk to and i may not always know the right words to say but at least i am here to listen to whatever you have to say and do my best to try to make you feel more at ease. i know i say this a lot and i don't know whether or not you realize this, i want you be happy. your happiness means so much to me. so please, next time something is eating you up inside, even if it's just the simplest of things. tell me. when i ask you what is wrong, don't try and endure things on your own cause you aren't on your own. there's a reason why i ask you these things, and i am persistent in getting an honest answer and not a lie such as, "it's nothing" or "i am fine." the reason for that is because i truly worry about you. i am pretty sure i know you well enough to tell when something is troubling you. there's so much things out there in life to look forward to, you mustn't blind yourself with things that bring you down. as soon as it does, just get back up. you have to learn to realize that no matter how hard things get, you have to look at life from another perspective. it's not whether the glass is half full or half empty. it never was or never is. you've got to realize that despite how full or half empty the glass is, you can always refill it. so please, next time something is on your mind. no matter how small it is, please tell me. especially when i know something is amidst your mind, that's when you should really tell me. i ask not simply for the sake of asking, i ask because i want to know and i want to try to set your mind at ease even if its just for the slightest amount. to let you know that things will be alright. that you aren't alone, you never were.

so yeah...promise me that you'll tell me no matter how small it may be. please.
( づ ^_^ )づ *hugs*