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what can i do to make this right.
im torn inside knowing that i hurt you.
i cant forgive myself.
ive done something i really shouldnt have done.
i can only hope that you will somehow forgive me.
i know things arent going to be the same even if things are patched up.
but id rather that happen than not be with you.
i know that sorry might not be enough to move things along.
but for the record, i truly am sorry.
in life we strive to seek happiness.
once that happiness is found, its hard to let go.
i found my happiness in you.
things happened and i messed up.
no matter how much i say sorry, i dont think it will change what ive done.
hopefully. just hopefully it will make even the slightest difference.
not only do i seek the happiness thats hiding once more, but with it. forgiveness.

:dear you:

dear sandra,

im really sorry. i've cause you to feel sad. thats the last thing i want to do. i dont know whats wrong with me. i guess, your boyfriend is just a jealous idiot. you have given me nothing but happiness and here i am, causing you to be sad. im truly sorry from the bottom of my heart and i hope you can find any chance to forgive this jealous, idiotic, boyfriend. i didnt meant to cause you distress. i hate the sight of us arguing and dont want us to. i want you to be happy because nothing else brings me happiness than seeing that smile on your face but ive done something that i completely regret. if it were possible, i wish i could turn back the hands of time and stop myself from causing you harm. you and your happiness means everything to me because i know that i love you. the feeling i get knowing that you are mine and i am yours is deep and i want to patch things up between us. just tell me what you want me to do. please...

i truly love you with all my heart and i hope you can find it in yourself to forgive me and my stupidity. and hope that you can still say that you love me.

please forgive me.... im really really really sorry ~

-albert

:feelings:

feelings.

i hope she understands how i feel about things.
the first relationship is always hard, i know.
i want her to truly understand things.
she knows talkin to him makes me completely uncomfortable.
she said that she would stop talkin if it makes me that uncomfortable.
and yet the conversations continue.
i want her to just stop talking to him.
block him. ignore him. instantly reply with "sorry im busy" and then be nonresponsive.
i dont care how....
just...please stop...its really uncomfortable and kind of painful...
i know it might be alot to ask for..but it's the perspective of a boyfriend.
would it really matter THAT much if they just stopped talking?
he has more friends to talk with. she has her friends.
is he really worth causing me this discomfort and pain...?
and is he really worth causing both of us to argue...?
i really dont want us to argue over such a thing like this.
its so simple..
just stop talkin to him...please...as a personal request from me
i love her and would do anything for her. why. commitment. simple as that.
would she really truly do this thing ive been askin from her?
who knows... but i just, really hope so... o_o