:fuhhh i seriously need to fucking vent this shit out:

i just had to blog this shit here
i need to fucking vent
i would vent this shit out on tumblr but i dont want youre ass seeing it.!

first of all, FUCK YOU!
i know that shit mustve been really hard on you last night, i cant even imagine what happened.
but drowning yourself in alcohol does not fucking do anything!
if you get fucked up and shit, you'd only end up in more trouble
you know how you fucking get when you drink!!!!! and youre still going to?! wtf is wrong with you!!!
im telling you not to do this but if you really are, just be fucking careful. and then you tell me that you dont give a shit what happens?!?! you know what!, even if you dont give a shit!! i fucking do! last time you got all fucked you, you listened to everyone and started dancing to your korean music and lifting up your shirt and shit! you know how that made me feel?!?!?! and youre planning on going to your cousins to drink again.
im just telling you to be careful and all you keep saying back to me is that you dont give a shit and that you need this.
you know quite well how you get with alcohol and you know that youre cousins end up making you drink alot. i know you wont even be able to resist and you'll just keep drinking and throw up just to fucking keep drinking again until you are completely gone.
if you start lifting your shirt again, kissing people, or even showing a slight chance of lust, i am done. i know, its the alcohol right? wrong! you know what would happen before hand, im even warning you and if you still go and do what you gonna do tonight, i cannot promise you that i will be there for you the next day. i
i really care for you and worry about you, dont ever underestimate how much i care. my head hurts so much right now just worrying about you and whether or not something is gonna happen tonight. thats why im praying to god that you dont end up fucking up and doing something youre gonna regret. its youre actions and you have to live by them. after tonight, we'll see whether or not there will even still be an us.