:fattie:

so yesterday i was being such a fattie
finally headed home after staying at my cousins since saturday
we stopped and ate pho on the way
omg so delish
i freakin love it so much
also had some bbq
got home around 8 then had to pick up my mom
omg thats not all of it
afterwards, headed to koreana in riverside for some korean bbq with thao and tram
mann i hasnt hung out with thao in awhile
tram especially, freakin hasnt seen her since thao's graduation
but yeahhh omggg
freakin they tryna make me choke and explode
taking my time eating and they were like force feeding me shit >.>
i also love kbbq so i took it like a man and ate! mwuaha XD
afterwards we went to redlands to go drop someone off and then went back to fontana drop me off
then thao headed back to redlands
wtf? i think it wouldve been easier to just drop me off first LOL
or rather i shouldve just called jb to see if i could sleep over
it was late already. hmm why didnt i think of that, oh wells.
ended the night chattin with sandra
i love having late night chats with her
makes my night end with a smile
thats it for now :]

:sleep:

best
shit
ever!
ahaa slept the whole afternoon away
freakin woke up a couple min ago
and now just got out of the shower
i feel so freakin refreshed
sleep was interesting though
the dream was so weirdd
yet very interesting...

:five:

woke up this morning.
first thought.
mmm, five months have passed now
i look back at the time that has passed since the beginning
all the moments together
all the smiles shared
all the drama endured
the memories that can never be erased
everything.
it all made me pause for a moment
as i sit here smiling.

:surprise:

aha
hung out with kevin yesterday till midnight
finally caught up with him after several years
felt like we just saw each other the other day too
went to joanne to try and surprise her but freakin nico was there
he doesnt like kevin even though they never met XD
she was all like, nico isnt here you can come!
my ass!!!
so kevin just stayed in the car
she was like, "so whats the surprise?"
i was like, "ummm.. ummm.. *trying to think of an excuse* ummm..."
"the surprise is... there is no surprise!...SURPRISE?" LOL
ahaa chilled for like 3 min and shot some hoops.
freakin hardly was able to see the ball
so dark ._.
went back tot he car where kevin was waiting and chilled with him some more
when i got home, i knocked out >.>
woke up before five and saw my phone light up
sandra was calling
chatting with her made me smile.
yeah, it was nice.
lets see how the rest of the day is gonna go.

:idk:

things have not been going right between us
we've grown really distant
if i have anyone to blame, i can blame no one else but myself
i started to get the feeling she hardly even cared anymore
maybe it was just my imagination but every time we talked, more and more of it felt empty
as if our conversations were whatever to her
i may not have been the most interesting person to talk to but i tried
maybe im just too clingy and i always want to spend time with her
that's only cause we hardly ever get to spend time together
one thing i can say for sure though is that
despite all that has happened between us, all the difficult moments
idk how she may feel about things
regardless of whether or not she feels if anything was even real
i can honestly say i enjoyed our time together and it was real for me
whatever type of person she may perceive me to be, i can and will truthfully say that i tried my best and that i'd like to thank her for even allowing me to be part of her life
i recall her being influenced by jason's words before
and im here now saying that ive been devoted to her ever since the moment we got together
and that whether or not she believes me to be telling a lie or the truth, it is really up to her own judgment.
all i can say is that i have not regretted our relationship even for a single moment and thanks for the memories along the way.

:fireworks:

mwuahahaha
fourth of july! :]
i was a freakin pyro!!
uncle put me in charge of fireworks
gawd there was so much
over $100 worth
how fun... *sinister chuckle*
i love fourth of july
i get to blow shit up!!!
my finger started hurting after though
freakin used the lighter so much
and the flames got to me every now and then
D:
ewww.
but all in all, it was fun.
i loved the lil fireworks the most.
much better explosive impacts
oh oh oh and the seizure one
freakin hurt my eyes so much but i couldnt stop lighting it
just amazing! x]

:cousins:

ahaa i love my cousins.
spent the last 5 days with them in moreno valley.
fun fun fun.
just played games
watched movies
watched tv
danced stupidly
blew shit up
ahhhh fun times :]
first time i actually really hung out with them since summer started
so it was great
wish it lasted longer though
oh well, ill see em soon
pretty sure of that.